Kick wrote on Sep 2
nd, 2019 at 2:15pm:
I don't feel the lines were all that clear in my high school, but then again I've forgotten most of high school. I HATED it. I wasn't even at the bottom of the pile. I went between the nerds and the more popular nerds who didn't think they were nerds but definitely were. Even in those groups it was cut-throat. Everyone was looking to get one up on someone else because, if someone else was down, that means you weren't as far down. When people say those were the best years of their life, I can't relate at all. If I woke up and it was the first day of high school and all the years up to now were a dream, I think I would kill myself. Sorry if I derailed this. I have... strong feelings about high school.
I was in the skater/druggy crowd. Can't help but feel like I was destined for it in some ways since my favorite types of music have always had a weird psychedelic/trance quality to it. New Wave, Neopsychedelic grunge like Smashing Pumpkins Melancholy and the Infinite Sadness and of course you can't forget Pink Floyd.
But reading your post sure does remind me of high school. I was severely depressed at a time when depression was just starting to be openly discussed. It was really tough, not gonna lie. This was more than just your normal teenage angst, clinical depression just plain sucks and for those who have never experienced it you are lucky!!
High school was dog eat dog. And although I never was picked on due to the fact that I was in pretty good shape and looked intimidating (
) I was very lonely regardless of any friends and felt lost through most of it. I've always been very compassionate, which I know does not come through on my posts much, but that is the WORST thing you can be in high school or in the corporate world for that matter... You will be taken advantage of all the time. Which I was. It's just a sad world we live in at times. If I didn't have a family and could reasonably live with a pack of wolves, I probably would. Wolves at least tend to growl before attacking, humans smile and pat you on the back.